My Tale of Where Autism Lives

Bridgette Angel Montgomery 💙❤️💙
Since the day my son was born, I began to chronicle his life. All the laughter and joy my son have brought into my life can never be replaced. I've shared all his accomplishments and his successes. I've documented milestones he's achieved in his life as well as included almost all of his experiences and adventures. Mothering Josiah has been nothing short of a blessing for me. I've come to recognize Gods grace and mercies because he choose me to care for this unique and gifted child of mine. I love my son with my whole heart and can't imagine what my life would be without him.

With all the great stories documented about his life, I've chosen to leave out the struggles and the hardship along the way. I've never spoken of the challenges I face on a daily basis and how difficult it is raising a child on the Spectrum. The tears I cry and the pain I feel at times is almost indescribable. I look around for someone who may understand my pain, but there is no one there, as there are no two autistic children alike. I search for answers but there are none that can define what my son is going through at the moment (The Meltdowns); and all I can do is sit back and watch others as they watch him looking on in fear, confusion, frustration, anger, sadness, and dismay.

Everyday is unpredictable for me, but it must be predictable for him. How do I let a child know what's going to happen next when I don't even know? How do I calm his fears when all I'm trying to do is love and protect him? How do I quiet the sounds that only he can hear, and make the natural noises of everyday life disappear? How do I slow his brain down and tell it to shut off for a second just to give his mind some rest? How do I explain the dangers that are all around him and help him to understand the permanence that comes with it? How do I....? How do I? How do I....? I don't!!!! I can't!!!! So I pray!!!!

~So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)~.

....... And then I feel encouraged!

So, no matter what you are going through the Lord will strengthen you and help you. He will uphold you with his righteous hand, so don't you worry or don't you fret, God is not through with you yet. Be encourage and have a blessed day!

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